There are two kinds of people in this world: the explosive kind, and the forbearing kind. Everyone likes to think that they’re the second type, but… not everyone was gifted with the self-awareness needed to realize that they’re actually not the forbearing kind. Of course, I do like to think that I’m the second type. Who doesn’t love to foster a beautiful self-image? Something happened recently, and it made me really wonder about whether or not I can swallow my anger and move on.

In the moment I was angry, I acted like the matter at hand was simple, but a couple of days later, I was reminded of it again and that time around, I couldn’t hold my anger in anymore. I didn’t care about anyone being hurt by the words coming out of my mouth. I said exactly how I felt, with no filter whatsoever. May Allah subhanahu wa’tala forgive me. I probably hurt them, but I don’t think I feel bad about it. They’ve been hurting me for an extended period of time, and I’m only human. Our Prophet was the forbearing kind, may peace and blessing be upon him. If I were treated the way the people of Quraish treated Muhammad S.A.W, I probably would’ve forsaken humanity and lived in a secluded place for the rest of my life.

What was done to me was bad, but my Prophet (pbuh) had it much worse. I would never wish for anyone to go through what I went through. May Allah swt protect us all. Ameen. I’m tired. I’m exhausted. I don’t have much else to say, so I’ll end today’s article here.

فِي أَمَانِ اللَّهِ