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Stop Hating Your Body, It Isn’t Yours; You Are More Than How You Look
﷽ ☺︎ What do I have to offer other than my beauty? Why am I so obsessed with looking like the most beautiful woman in the room? I think the answers to these questions stem from different pressure points I’ve been feeling all my life. Last month, I seriously considered wearing the niqab. The fact…
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Why Have I Never Been a Good Enough Reason for Myself?
﷽ ☺︎ One thing I learned early on about spawning in an East African Muslim household as a girl is that you are raised alongside the concept of shame from the moment you start suckling your mother’s breast. My siblings are very different from one another. Some of us are outspoken about everything, while some…
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I Know How to Tie My Camel, I Just Need to Relearn How to Put Tawakkul in Allah
﷽ ☺︎ Hello, dear reader. I hope you’re doing well. I’ve been trying to put all my focus on the process, and I learned that it is a painful thing to do. I’m the kind of person who tends to check everything twice or thrice to see if any mistakes have been made or if…
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New Era Incoming! I Give the Last Version of Umulkhair a Big Hug & Say Goodbye
﷽ ☺︎ I’m getting older. I don’t care about the unnecessary things I used to care about. It feels as though an unseen boulder has been lifted off my back; that’s the best way I could describe how I’m currently feeling. Alhamdulilah. I don’t have to keep thinking so negatively about myself. I’m entering a…
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Should I Live in the Moment, or Should I Make Older Me Proud? Can’t I Do Both at the Same Time?
﷽ ☺︎ A crushing fact I learned about life is that it goes on. No matter what happens, whether it be good, neutral, or bad, life continues to happen. Alhamdulilah for that. A while back, I told Allah that I wanted to change for the better and He sent someone to me. This person has…
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I Got Rid of Most of My Clothes, and I Feel Free! *Cackles in Sméagol*
﷽ ☺︎ For a while now, my life has been feeling like utter chaos. Not the kind of chaos where I have so many things happening all at once that I feel overwhelmed. Rather, it’s the kind where I feel like my focus and attention has splintered across many different things, and some of those…
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What Is Love?
﷽ ☺︎ I’m very much not a nostalgic person, though I’ve lately been thinking about how love has presented itself to me in every relationship I’ve ever had. I don’t know… maybe it’s because I’m getting older that I feel this strong urge to contemplate the ways love has come to me. I’m nothing if…
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Hi I’d Like to Order Some Thoughts with a Side of Self-Loathing
﷽ ☺︎ Hello, dear reader. I didn’t feel like writing today, but I still have to stick to the schedule I created for this blog. I’ve been using my Notes app these days to collect random thoughts I’ve been having, so I thought: “since I don’t have the energy to write a full, coherent article,…
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Eid Mubarak! I Prayed Next to an Auntie I Blocked Last Year & It Was Awkward
﷽ ☺︎ Hey guys! Happy Eid ul-Adha. This year, I walked to the place I pray Eid prayer every year. I made it on time, alhamdulilah. A few minutes after I got there, everyone got up for the prayer, so I think it’s fair to say that I was a couple of minutes early. I…
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How Are You Doing? Busy! How’s Life? Busy! What Did You Do This Week? Busy! Did You Eat Today? Busy!
﷽ ☺︎ Let me be absolutely honest: I’m the type to leave things where they are then frantically try to get them done at the very last minute. I like the feeling of adrenaline rushing through my body from doing that. But that’s not how life has been for the past few months. I didn’t…