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I Can Do It Because I’m Literally a Boss / Creative Director / Highly Imaginative Person Who Has Survived Everything That Was Ever Thrown Her Way & Literally Has Allah by Her Side
﷽ ☺︎ Obviously, it’s a piece of cake. I do not view the things that are stopping me from getting what I want as impediments that need to be worked on. Life is good!!! Life is spectacular, alhamdulilah. It’s times like these a Muslim is capable of falling into ingratitude. You realize that life is…
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August: Anticipation, God-Consciousness, & Choosing to Live Life on Easy Mode
﷽ ☺︎ Nowadays, I can tell when I feel genuinely exhausted. This is a pretty huge development for someone who constantly felt like logging out of life and entering a never ending sleep. Alhamdulilah, I’ve reached a point where I can verbally say no to things I know will leave me burnt out in the…
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Stop Hating Your Body, It Isn’t Yours; You Are More Than How You Look
﷽ ☺︎ What do I have to offer other than my beauty? Why am I so obsessed with looking like the most beautiful woman in the room? I think the answers to these questions stem from different pressure points I’ve been feeling all my life. Last month, I seriously considered wearing the niqab. The fact…
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Why Have I Never Been a Good Enough Reason for Myself?
﷽ ☺︎ One thing I learned early on about spawning in an East African Muslim household as a girl is that you are raised alongside the concept of shame from the moment you start suckling your mother’s breast. My siblings are very different from one another. Some of us are outspoken about everything, while some…
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I Know How to Tie My Camel, I Just Need to Relearn How to Put Tawakkul in Allah
﷽ ☺︎ Hello, dear reader. I hope you’re doing well. I’ve been trying to put all my focus on the process, and I learned that it is a painful thing to do. I’m the kind of person who tends to check everything twice or thrice to see if any mistakes have been made or if…
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New Era Incoming! I Give the Last Version of Umulkhair a Big Hug & Say Goodbye
﷽ ☺︎ I’m getting older. I don’t care about the unnecessary things I used to care about. It feels as though an unseen boulder has been lifted off my back; that’s the best way I could describe how I’m currently feeling. Alhamdulilah. I don’t have to keep thinking so negatively about myself. I’m entering a…
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Should I Live in the Moment, or Should I Make Older Me Proud? Can’t I Do Both at the Same Time?
﷽ ☺︎ A crushing fact I learned about life is that it goes on. No matter what happens, whether it be good, neutral, or bad, life continues to happen. Alhamdulilah for that. A while back, I told Allah that I wanted to change for the better and He sent someone to me. This person has…
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I Got Rid of Most of My Clothes, and I Feel Free! *Cackles in Sméagol*
﷽ ☺︎ For a while now, my life has been feeling like utter chaos. Not the kind of chaos where I have so many things happening all at once that I feel overwhelmed. Rather, it’s the kind where I feel like my focus and attention has splintered across many different things, and some of those…
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What Is Love?
﷽ ☺︎ I’m very much not a nostalgic person, though I’ve lately been thinking about how love has presented itself to me in every relationship I’ve ever had. I don’t know… maybe it’s because I’m getting older that I feel this strong urge to contemplate the ways love has come to me. I’m nothing if…
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Hi I’d Like to Order Some Thoughts with a Side of Self-Loathing
﷽ ☺︎ Hello, dear reader. I didn’t feel like writing today, but I still have to stick to the schedule I created for this blog. I’ve been using my Notes app these days to collect random thoughts I’ve been having, so I thought: “since I don’t have the energy to write a full, coherent article,…