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Beauty Springs Forth from Knowing Thyself and Devotionmaxxing
I’ve never really given myself to a canvas. Art was never really something I saw in paintings. Whenever the great artists were mentioned, I’d think: “So some guy decided to dedicate his life to drawing his surroundings. So what? What’s the big deal?” But I changed. I want to start painting. I think I kind…
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Flop Movies, YouTube Videos & TV Shows; Don’t You Love a Trashy Form of Escapism?
I don’t want to handle my life the way I’ve been handling it so far. I don’t want to numb myself to the point where I don’t believe that the problems I’ve been running away from don’t even exist. I was watching a show before I started typing this. I don’t find the show interesting,…
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I Can Do It Because I’m Literally a Boss / Creative Director / Highly Imaginative Person Who Has Survived Everything That Was Ever Thrown Her Way & Literally Has Allah by Her Side
﷽ ☺︎ Obviously, it’s a piece of cake. I do not view the things that are stopping me from getting what I want as impediments that need to be worked on. Life is good!!! Life is spectacular, alhamdulilah. It’s times like these a Muslim is capable of falling into ingratitude. You realize that life is…
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August: Anticipation, God-Consciousness, & Choosing to Live Life on Easy Mode
﷽ ☺︎ Nowadays, I can tell when I feel genuinely exhausted. This is a pretty huge development for someone who constantly felt like logging out of life and entering a never ending sleep. Alhamdulilah, I’ve reached a point where I can verbally say no to things I know will leave me burnt out in the…
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Stop Hating Your Body, It Isn’t Yours; You Are More Than How You Look
﷽ ☺︎ What do I have to offer other than my beauty? Why am I so obsessed with looking like the most beautiful woman in the room? I think the answers to these questions stem from different pressure points I’ve been feeling all my life. Last month, I seriously considered wearing the niqab. The fact…
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Why Have I Never Been a Good Enough Reason for Myself?
﷽ ☺︎ One thing I learned early on about spawning in an East African Muslim household as a girl is that you are raised alongside the concept of shame from the moment you start suckling your mother’s breast. My siblings are very different from one another. Some of us are outspoken about everything, while some…
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I Know How to Tie My Camel, I Just Need to Relearn How to Put Tawakkul in Allah
﷽ ☺︎ Hello, dear reader. I hope you’re doing well. I’ve been trying to put all my focus on the process, and I learned that it is a painful thing to do. I’m the kind of person who tends to check everything twice or thrice to see if any mistakes have been made or if…
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New Era Incoming! I Give the Last Version of Umulkhair a Big Hug & Say Goodbye
﷽ ☺︎ I’m getting older. I don’t care about the unnecessary things I used to care about. It feels as though an unseen boulder has been lifted off my back; that’s the best way I could describe how I’m currently feeling. Alhamdulilah. I don’t have to keep thinking so negatively about myself. I’m entering a…
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Should I Live in the Moment, or Should I Make Older Me Proud? Can’t I Do Both at the Same Time?
﷽ ☺︎ A crushing fact I learned about life is that it goes on. No matter what happens, whether it be good, neutral, or bad, life continues to happen. Alhamdulilah for that. A while back, I told Allah that I wanted to change for the better and He sent someone to me. This person has…
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I Got Rid of Most of My Clothes, and I Feel Free!
﷽ ☺︎ For a while now, my life has been feeling like utter chaos. Not the kind of chaos where I have so many things happening all at once that I feel overwhelmed. Rather, it’s the kind where I feel like my focus and attention has splintered across many different things, and some of those…