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I sometimes wonder how life would’ve turned out for me if I made one small change/decision early on. What if I didn’t do that when I was younger? What if I did that instead? Would I be a totally different person, or would I end up being the person I am now?
I have these thoughts not because I’m unsatisfied with who I am today. Alhamdulilah for the person Allah turned me into. But… I don’t know. I like to think about the unlimited possibilities and potentialities that existence offers.
Being proactive about one’s life is one of the blessings that Allah has endowed the human being. To be selfish with one’s own life is a right, but there are real obstacles that life throws your way as soon as you decide to take the steps you want to take.
If I want to make money, I have to use my mind and my body to get the exact amount I want. That’s what striving and toiling after what you desire is all about. First, I must be thankful and grateful to Allah, because nothing would be possible nor probable without Allah. Saying thank you and being grateful are two different ways to express your love for Him. The very fact that I exist is completely contingent on Him. So, I’d be remiss to not acknowledge that it is God alone who can help me and every other living being, not the other way around.
People like to focus on the means instead of the source. I had a conversation about this with my mother the other day. She was baffled at my desiring financial independence and the fact that I’ve decided not to work. I could tell by her expression that she was agitated. I said yeah no it’s definitely something a logical mind would find irrational: I say I want money but I do not and will not do the very thing that would make me money (i.e, work).
I hate work. That’s a huge statement to make, and I hope you don’t misunderstand me when I say that. To be clear: I love a few things in this life, and working on them would be an absolute pleasure. I just hate the job market, and the whole eight hour thing you have to do everyday for the rest of your life. If I love something, I would gladly dedicate the rest of my living hours to it. But I’m not interested in job titles, or climbing a ladder, as well as 99.99999% of available work out there. I hate how we all have to do this. Some people thrive in this system. Unfortunately (or fortunately), I’m not one of those people.
Oh! and I find it funny that people out there jokingly redact the words job, employed, and work from their videos. Very funny. lmao.
It seems I need to carve out my place in the world.