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A Muslim Woman Expresses Her Pernicious Feelings of Lassitude
﷽ ☺︎ The exhaustion finally caught up to me, alhamdulilah. These days, I have this nasty habit of checking my phone as soon as I open my eyes. I think this newfound habit has something to do with a madman threatening to end an entire civilization. May Allah swt protect the ummah from the disbelievers.…
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On Progress, My Paid Newsletter, and People Who Are Always Negative & Embroiled in Drama
﷽ ☺︎ Progress is slow, but it is inevitable. Today, I feel very behind in life. I’m not where I want to be. I’m not comparing myself to anyone, alhamdulilah, but the younger version of myself had so many expectations for how my life was supposed to be. Alhamdulilah, I’m not the same the person…
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On Celebrating Important Milestones, Alhamdulilah!
﷽ ☺︎ Not very long ago, I received an update indicating that I’ve reached a very important milestone. Alhamdulilah. Without Allah, it never would have been possible. All thanks and appreciation belong to Him. I won’t say what happened, dear reader, but I nevertheless would like to share how I experienced this event. Most of…
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The Positives, The Negatives, & The Beauty of Existing
﷽ ☺︎ These days, I have zero energy for life. I also hate waking up early. I haven’t been praying fajr on time. My day starts around noon, or after duhr, whichever comes first. I go to sleep when it’s a little before fajr time, so I get my eight hours of sleep throughout the…
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On Perfectionism, Shirking Help from Others, & My Fake Fear of People
﷽ ☺︎ When did my worrying of how others perceive me start? In high school? Maybe even before that? I’m not exactly sure when this anxiousness started. I’m trying to remember if this trait of mine developed early on in life, or if it happened later in my adolescence. Either way, it’s here. It’s here…
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On Living Proactively, Allah as the Source, & Thoughts on Work
﷽ ☺︎ I sometimes wonder how life would’ve turned out for me if I made one small change/decision early on. What if I didn’t do that when I was younger? What if I did that instead? Would I be a totally different person, or would I end up being the person I am now? I…
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On Pessimism, Human Worth, & Learning through Adversity
﷽ ☺︎ I hate looking back and reminiscing over the past… mostly because there aren’t that many good memories. What’s amplified in my head is the bad stuff. I don’t think I’m alone in thinking this way. Whatever I remember about my past is not that good. Many people tend to think about the bad stuff. People…
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You Already Have the Answer to Your Problems, You’re Just Afraid of Letting Go
﷽ ☺︎ There are people in this world who are stuck in the past. I know that to be true because I currently happen to be one of those people. Someone maybe said something nasty to you one time, and you never got over it. When I’m alone and I’m not occupied with my phone…
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On Consistency, Commitment Issues, & Finding the Perfect Fit
﷽ ☺︎ I have this fear of sticking to one thing. I feel like if I stay in one place for too long or get comfortable with something, I’ll miss out on a lot of what’s out there. I think the root cause my inconsistency is my having this irrational fear of feeling caged in…